Nope

Still here. Still no baby. Get used to it. If I have to, so do you.

I have another prenatal appt. tomorrow morning, so we'll see if there has been any progress. Unfortunately I will be seeing a different doctor in the practice and I wonder if his "3" centimeters take on a different feel than the last doctor's "3" centimeters. I'd hate to be told I was 3 last week just to go in and be told I am 2 this week based on a different opinion of what a centimeter really is, you know? Does that happen? Any Ob-Gyn-Opqrs's in the audience? Little help here?

I had a tough morning (emotionally speaking) with LittleJuJu. He has eczema, which is not bad and usually only shows up on his shins and sometimes upper arms. You can't see it really and can only tell when it gets bad by touch. He never tells me that it itches or bothers him, so occasionally I will ask and we can put some prescription cream on it. This year I've noticed really dry patches on his face. Either on a cheek, or up between his eye and nose. Again, I put cream on it and after a couple days it will clear up. This week, it came back on his face and there are two red marks...looks as though he may have scratched it and left behind a little scrape. Honestly, it looks like he has two zits. It really, REALLY bothers him. He checked himself in the mirror about 6 or 7 times before school this morning. I could tell he was so self-conscious about it and it broke my heart. He is 6! What will it be like when he reaches puberty and the real zits start showing up??

He had picture day last week and I sent him to school wearing this sweater and it looked SO NICE on him. When he came home I found it shoved into his backpack. When I asked if he had worn it for pictures he said that he had and that he'd taken it off afterward. I told him that I would obviously know if he was lying when I got the pictures back. He confessed that he'd taken it off. I was so pissed, but tried not to overreact about it. Later he told Mr. JuJu that his "friend" had teased him about it. So now, on top of wanting to choke the little shithead misguided youth, I am worried about LittleJuJu. I wonder if he gets teased about things, and wonder if he was picked on about the marks on his face yesterday to warrant the concern he had this morning.

It's so hard to let them go out and be their own person. I hate to think that he is being picked on for anything. I half wish he would punch the kid and I half wish he'd not care at all. How do I accept that life will not be perfect for my kids and that they will endure some pain along the way? When people told me to enjoy him when he was a baby, I'd laugh and think, "Yeah right. This is so hard...it can only get better."

I was so wrong.

Comments

[Jamie]

NO BABY??? WTF, man. J/K.

I used to work in the Labor and Delivery Unit and YES it happens all the time with one Dr./Rn thinking a patient was this much but then another Dr./Rn thinks it's more/less. Sorry.

I know what you mean about the teasing. My little one has had a terriable time lately with these a**..I mean jerks of kids picking on her and making her cry. Too bad I can't run them over with my Durango. I'd really like to.

Hang in there momma!

[Shann]

Poor little guy! Kids are so mean. I empathize with the eczema; show him my hands and he'll see that there are worse things to have! (Forget that, you'll just give the poor guy nightmares!) Who would make fun of such a beautiful sweater? Bastards!

[MoM]

I really should have stressed to you the difficulty of parenting. I'm so sorry. I thought you knew! My heart aches for LJ, I could tell the last few phone conversations that something was wrong... I would trade places with you if it would make it better, but you probly wouldn't want my end either... It will be ok. There are lots of things more important than the sweater thing (You DIDN'T pay $30 for that???) ;-) Just love 'im as much as you can.
Love,

[heathabee]

you are such a good mommy, Jujubee <3 I totally felt your pain when I read this entry, and I don't even have kids yet! I guess because I was picked on and I remember being self-conscious as a kid (heck, even sometimes now!). Just keep loving him the way you do and telling him how wonderful and special he is and it will be ok :)

[Heather]

GRRR..it makes me angry that kids are so mean.

Poor little guy, I hope it gets better.

[Melissa]

The poor kid. I can't stand that kids pick on each other for nothing. Hopefully nobody noticed his face.

Girl I'm sorry you have to still be pregnant. Watch, this one will be on time. He has to be different right? Make his place known right off the bat.

[Tammy]

Hang in there, being a parent is VERY hard! The hardest being when you can't fix something for your child! I hate the fact that children can be SO mean!!!
By the way, that sweater is absolutely beautiful! I think maybe somebody was jealous!